It can be so hard to get over phobia things. While the ones I have don't sound like they're as debilitating as yours, I still find it pretty hard when I have to confront them, just because it makes me feel so stressed - my mind is yelling "THIS CANNOT BE GOOD, STOP IT AT ONCE!" But then if I manage to overcome something small, it does have an impact and it makes me feel a bit more powerful and brave. So - yeah. And aiming to make specific events is good, to remind you why you're trying to change things.

I had had coffee, so that explains it :D