Radio aid day and agoraphobia.

Well yet again I have insomnia, I've been awake for just over 26 hours at the moment, and I'm quite bored, spent my time reading, drawing, playing computer games and listening to the special radio aid day on Virgin radio, a special show where over 240 commercial radio stations got together to make a special 12 hour show to get donations for the tsunami appeal, well they managed to raise over £3 million, which was way more than their goal, so that was great, and it was a pretty good show.
The Manics are going to play in the tsunami appeal concert later this month, I can't wait for that, although I can't actually go they are going to show it on the TV so hopefully they will show them amongst the other bands that are playing.

My brother has been suspiciously nice to me today, he gave me a Lenore key chain doll for no apparent reason, which is very odd, we barley even talk to each other and today he gives me this key chain for no apparent reason, I know I can be a very suspicious person but that is weird!
I've redone my Johnny the Homicidal Maniac pic amonst other rough pics, drawn it up neatly and coloured it and posted it on DeviantART, so the day wasn't completely wasted.
I'm going outside tomorrow, I think, I haven't been outside for weeks, probably about 5 weeks ago, I'm kinda freaking out about it, I don't think I can do it, too much stress, argh!!! So maybe I won't go out after all, it depends on how well I can cope.

I still haven't seen "White noise" for the reason above, I though I'd be able to go to the cinema since it's dark and (usually) pretty quiet if you go late at night and no-one would really pay attention to me, but I can't do it, I have also seen an advert for a new upcoming horror movie "Creep" I think it was called, the trailer didn't say much about the movie, but it looks interesting, well anyway, I think I have rambled on enough for one night, I'm gonna go play isketch because I am still bored!,

Stay Beautiful,

Aissa.

P.S. forgive any typos, I'm kinda tired, but then again no-one reads this anyway so I dunno who I am applogising too! XD

I couldn't do it, argh!

Well all did not go to plan today, I was due to leave the house for the first time in about a month, but I couldn't do it, the doctor keeps telling me the longer I leave in inbetween trips outside the harder it's gonna get, and man she wasn't kidding! I was so sure I could do it today, but no such luck, I just feel like I wanna hide myself away in my room forever and never leave again, well maybe I'll have better luck next time, I guess I can try again next week, or maybe try going to the cinema late at night when there's hardly anyone around, and I can sit at the back in the dark where no-one will notice me, or even care if they do, ugh, why does it have to be so hard? well wish me luck for next time, I'm gonna go and read,

Stay Beautiful,

Aissa.