Miserable git alert!
Dec. 4th, 2006 01:53 amYikes it's been over a month since my last journal entry, these things just keep getting further and further appart!
I've just been finding it so hard to get motivated lately, even with things I like doing such as drawing. It doesn't help that I have a terrible cold right now, my head has been pounding all day like there's a tiny heavy mental band in my head playing non stop at full volume! (Hence why Im about to go to bed after ealry tonight, I've typed this up, hopefully I'll feel better in the morning.... although I hoped that last night and felt worse this morning after a long restless night).
Not to mention Christmas is coming, and with my current lack of motivation it's pretty scary, I know I should be doing the shopping for people's presents before it gets too late but I just can't seem to pull myself together to do it. I can see it being a last minute thing like last year where I ordered everyones gifts off eBay and other online shops about 5 days before Christmas and prayed they would all get here in time (luckily they did).
In another slightly more possitive note my mother has ordered tickets to "The New Statesman" play in Nottingham next year in the hopes that it will encourage me to try going outside and start to get over my agoraphobia, afterall how could I resist going to see Rik Mayall live on stage? *squee!*
Well anyway, I am hoping to start trying to go outside again sometime (when I can get over this lethargy), not only to see Rik Mayall but for all the other things I'm sick of missing out on due to this stupid phobia (like missing the Manics in Manchester this month, and everything else I missed this year that I wanted to do/see). I know I'll still have the social phobia and anxiety but at least if I can get over the agoraphobia and start going out again I'm sure things will be better.
Besides which the Manics are (most likely) going to be touring next year and that's also good motivation, I was totally bummed about missing their gig in Manchester this month and James' solo tour and Nicky's solo tour.
Well anyway that's really all I have to type about, absolutely nothing else interesting has happened (now you see why I don't post in this thing very often!) so,
Stay Beautiful,
Aissa.
P.S. please excuse any typos, I'm too knackered to check through it since I didn't get much sleep last night due to my asthma playing up because of this cold.
X-posed from my DA journal as usual.
I've just been finding it so hard to get motivated lately, even with things I like doing such as drawing. It doesn't help that I have a terrible cold right now, my head has been pounding all day like there's a tiny heavy mental band in my head playing non stop at full volume! (Hence why Im about to go to bed after ealry tonight, I've typed this up, hopefully I'll feel better in the morning.... although I hoped that last night and felt worse this morning after a long restless night).
Not to mention Christmas is coming, and with my current lack of motivation it's pretty scary, I know I should be doing the shopping for people's presents before it gets too late but I just can't seem to pull myself together to do it. I can see it being a last minute thing like last year where I ordered everyones gifts off eBay and other online shops about 5 days before Christmas and prayed they would all get here in time (luckily they did).
In another slightly more possitive note my mother has ordered tickets to "The New Statesman" play in Nottingham next year in the hopes that it will encourage me to try going outside and start to get over my agoraphobia, afterall how could I resist going to see Rik Mayall live on stage? *squee!*
Well anyway, I am hoping to start trying to go outside again sometime (when I can get over this lethargy), not only to see Rik Mayall but for all the other things I'm sick of missing out on due to this stupid phobia (like missing the Manics in Manchester this month, and everything else I missed this year that I wanted to do/see). I know I'll still have the social phobia and anxiety but at least if I can get over the agoraphobia and start going out again I'm sure things will be better.
Besides which the Manics are (most likely) going to be touring next year and that's also good motivation, I was totally bummed about missing their gig in Manchester this month and James' solo tour and Nicky's solo tour.
Well anyway that's really all I have to type about, absolutely nothing else interesting has happened (now you see why I don't post in this thing very often!) so,
Stay Beautiful,
Aissa.
P.S. please excuse any typos, I'm too knackered to check through it since I didn't get much sleep last night due to my asthma playing up because of this cold.
X-posed from my DA journal as usual.